Not My Thing

If the 5 year old me saw the present me, what would he say? Would he be proud of who I have become? Would he still respect me? Would he like how I turned out? I think the most important question to ask is this: Will he look up to me? I don’t think he would. Well, he might be happy to see that I still think girls have cooties, and I’m still into Pokemon. But I don’t think he would be too pleased with the rest of me. He would see some lazy kid who does barely enough to get by. He would see someone who is only concerned with himself. Sure he might be disappointed that I’m not a super hero, but that isn’t an excuse not to stop and help other people once in a while. I think he would be most disappointed about my work ethic. He can see that there are things I want to go after, dreams I want to chase, goals I want to reach. But he can also see that I’m not doing what I can to go after those things. I’m lazy, unmotivated, easily distracted, and, worst of all, I seem to give up way too easily. But what in the world could a 5 year old tell me that would make me change? “Do it for me. Make my dreams come true.” I’m gonna do it for the kid that was me.